KEEP IT TO A MINIMUM

Black and white, yes or no. Its that simple, straight to the face, but as always I linger around the grey zones. I don't like it; its being neither here nor there. As if I have lost a sense of direction or rather I decide not to choose and thus I am just stuck at the crossroad. The thing that irks me the most is that I am doing nothing, absolutely nothing about it. One of the reason is probably cause I am afraid to step out of somewhat I would call my comfort zone. Then when I look at the people around me, I know that I deserve something more, that I can do better than just this. But I refuse to budge, for fear of losing what I have at the moment, for walking away from something that I have become so accustomed to. And because of that, I shut myself out from a sea of opportunities until the circumstances forces me to explore, to seek, to discover and to accept. That shouldn't be the way at all. So I have a choice, no wait, I have choices, awaiting for me to seize them and embark on something new. Right now, I just need the courage to do so.

Butter's Anniversary

CHASING RAINBOWS

Eddee's Birthday - The White Rabbit

Business camp was good fun, I am glad that I went. The groupmates were all very nice people as well, no one bitchy or weird or mean in particular. And the Red section which I was in won overall haha. First day was just down right DIRTY. Playing captain's ball with raw chicken till its remains spewed all over our shirts; rolling around in mud to get bonus points, playing frisbee with peanut butter and chilli sauce; throwing eggs, papaya, bananas, syrup water bombs and trying to catch them with our shirts; pouring a concoction of tobasco and other weird stuff on everyone's hair of the losing team after a game of musical chair and many more disgusting games. Bottom line is after the games, we were all covered and soaked top to toe in mud, flour, dirt, gravel but since our Red section won we got to shower first. It was FRIGHT NIGHT after where a girl and a guy had to pair up with each other and go through different stations which was "haunted" with "ghosts" to solve a murder case. Well I was really scared and kept clinging on to my partner.

Second day was Amazing Race and the most exciting thing that we did was we had to make ourselves up like goths so the girls had a fun time drawing the guys' faces at Esplanade and we had to walk back to school like that. The other teams had to do the Ronald Mcdonald's face make up, geisha, Chinese Wayang which was really funny as they went all around Singapore with the respective make up on. The night ended with the famous or rather infamous "Clubbing Night" where we drank and partied in school and there were shit loads of alcohol and people puking as well.

Alright am gonna head out soon! Have an awesome Sunday

LET'S HAVE SOME FUN

The Night I Didn't Remember...

So I partied too much too hard last week, pokered after partying and fell ill as a result. And my greatest regret is missing out on my freshmen teambuilding camp. Sometimes I wonder why I do what I do. Anyohow, crashed NTU's bash at Butter last Thurs. Well it wasn't meant to be initially. But so happened that NTU was holding thier bash at Butter and it was a private event and we were at Butter too for this Malibu event which was not very fantastic being a Thursday so we crashed thier bash. The bouncers were nice enough to let us in and it was hell fun. Well for us it was, for them, I dunno. People were sleeping away in rows despite the loud music and "rah-rahs" Friday was one of those good nights at Zouk, then pokered all the way till 9am which caused me to fall ill. Sigh. For the record, I bought 7 pieces of clothing online within 2 days? Online shopping is hell addictive man. And I am also addicted to "The City" not that I really watch "The Hills" but "The City" is good since Gossip Girl's not out yet. Business camp tomorrow till Saturday, my first Uni camp since I missed the compulsory one but oh wells at least we are not sleeping in tents. Till then :)

WHEN WORDS ARE NOT ENOUGH

You slam the door
like those times before
and you're about to make me pay
for something that I did wrong today
You look at me
like it's time to grief
and it's obvious your minds made up
sorry it won't be quite enough
and i brace myself cause I know

There's a cold front on its way
I could feel it in your touch
words that you don't say
and they're leaving me frozen
my favorite moment
I've been making that thing
that a dilly goes on
I've got to stay warm

How long will this last
hope this storm can overlong before we crash
all the precautions that we didn't take
conditions that we never made
accumulate and now that we are face to face

There's a cold front on its way
I could feel it in your touch
words that you don't say
and they're leaving me frozen
my favorite moment
I've been making that thing
that a dilly goes on
I've got to stay warm

if I could wish winter away
when I see that look and know the clouds are gone
so vivid nowI know this could fade