SOMETHING HAS TO CHANGE

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ESPIONAGE - SMU Bash

Monday Monday Blues. I scraped off most of my plans for the day. Important they are actually, and I called them off. Can't stand myself at times. Its really such a bad habit. The weekends were dope. Zouk on both Friday and Saturday, well they were unplanned. But yeah both days turned out pretty interesting. Though I am off the whole party-till-you-drop-dead phase long ago, I still enjoy a few drinks, sitting around and talking to people. Anyway I need a job till I decide what the next step will be but I am undecided still. I have a couple of job offers but I just can't seem to drag my lazy ass down for interviews. Plus, I was thinking of traveling for a bit in the meantime. On a side note, I wanna hit the gym so badly since I am bumming around so much so yes I am gonna officially start my training programme in March. Ramen tonight at 313, hope it is as good as everyone says it is. Ciao.

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Presents from X :)

SKII Facial Treatment Essence 

Bangles

Marshmallows Hearts 

Happy Valentine's Day! Though everyday should be one. lol. Oh and Gong Xi Fa Cai! Had an awesome reunion dinner at Intercontinental Hotel with the Family. And yes I received my red packets. Grandma say to place them under the pillow idk why. Something like the tooth fairy concept I guess? lol. But I am grounded now :( 

Not allowed to head out tonight though I really very "gian" to go poker/mahjong/banluck. I messaged Hazel today asking her "Babe, are we playing bahnak at your place this year?" She replied me "Hahahaha banluck la!!! Not bahnak!" Omg I wanna hide my face man, still dream of gambling so much. That time during my internship, I "msn-ed" 2 of my colleagues (internal msn) asking them to stop making me laugh or else I "tio nai-xiong" Omg they bloody bang the table and lol even louder la and I was like wtf? Not realizing my stupidity of course. Then they replied "its lai-xiong! NOT NAI-XIONG!" 

In case for those who do not know right, lai-xiong means internal injury. So you cannot control your laughter too much cause you will hurt your internal organs or something like that la. But nai-xiong means breast injury. So yeah I mixed them up which explains why they suddenly burst out laughing. But nvm, proves that I am not some ah lian or whatsoever ok. haha. This is damn nonsense gosh, phone's ringing ciao!

SWEET NOTHINGS

DON'T BE AFRAID TO FALL

Ben's Halloween Bdae Party

Halloween @ Copthorne Hotel & Zouk

Got a million more albums that I have not yet uploaded dating back 6 months ago till now. These photos are considered to be ancient lol. Ever since the start of this year, my body has been failing me. Falling sick, getting infections and whatnots. I kinda attributed it to the foul weather and the rising stress level and the lack of sleep. No strike that off, I am just getting OLD. Reality check, I have passed the "teen" phase, you know the eight-teen, nine-teen, yeah and boom! Now I am at the "ty" page. Gonna be stuck here forever unless I hit a 100. But no way I don't wanna live till a hundred. With all that on hand, I really have not been doing much or can't be doing much when I am practically swaying most of the time. Not doing me any good when I have project meetings every day & night. Yes night! And I can't make it I think they all hate me, think I am a lazy ass and a good-for-nothing useless bum. I still have a presentation on eve of CNY, tragic huh. But then again, I am quitting school, so why am I bothering myself with all these and getting stressed up over it when I have my applications to be stress with. Its all about prioritizing and right now I think settling my applications should come first. 

And people ask me why am I giving up a SMU degree for something else that might not be as good or even doesn't guarantee that I can go to a good Uni after unless I really work my ass off. They say I should stick through with it and persevere for another 3 and a half more years. I know I might seem like a quitter, that I want the easy way out, that I cannot cope with the stress and the amount of work load but I guess this is my decision to make. It doesn't matter what people think or say or how uncertain my choice will affect my future because I know this is what I want. Yes, I am taking a huge risk, but how will I be able to take the leap and reach for the stars if I don't try. Yes I am very very afraid to fall but if I do I will pick myself up and do it all over again. I think the scariest thing in life is losing motivation and the path of direction you are gonna take to attain your goals. Staying on makes me feel this way, that somehow I am going on the wrong path. That with each passing day, I am losing my sense of direction and purpose. And ultimately, I feel that I am losing myself; the driven and determined person who never gives up is slowly fading away. I do not know where she is anymore and that scares the hell outta me. This time, I am gonna follow my heart and make my choice. No matter how stupid or foolish it seems, I don't care anymore. At least I am brave enough to go after what I want and that at any point in time I might just fall hard. But I am not afraid; we should never let fear put us down or be an obstacle to what we aim to achieve. No one said it would be easy but no one said we wouldn't succeed if we never did try. 

ITS NOW OR NEVER

"A couple of hundred years ago, Benjamin Franklin shared with the world the secret of his success. Never leave that till tomorrow, he said, which you can do today. This is the man who discovered electricity. You think more people would listen to what he had to say. I don't know why we put things off, but if I had to guess, I'd have to say it has a lot to do with fear. Fear of failure, fear of rejection, sometimes the fear is just of making a decision, because what if you're wrong? What if you're making a mistake you can't undo? The early bird catches the worm. A stitch in time saves nine. He who hesitates is lost. We can't pretend we hadn't been told. We've all heard the proverbs, heard the philosophers, heard our grandparents warning us about wasted time, heard the damn poets urging us to seize the day. Still sometimes we have to see for ourselves. We have to make our own mistakes. We have to learn our own lessons. We have to sweep today's possibility under tomorrow's rug until we can't anymore. Until we finally understand for ourselves what Benjamin Franklin really meant. That knowing is better than wondering, that waking is better than sleeping, and even the biggest failure, even the worst, beat the hell out of never trying."

Meredith Grey

LOL

OMG this is damn funny la! "I wan to bonk a girl" BONK???? Who the hell uses BONK? We were laughing our asses off while reading these threads posted on some forum yesterday. And no we are not dirty minded, we were just in the midst of researching Hotel 81 for one of our projects. Funny thing is we kept reading and reading all the different topics posted like "How I lost my V", like wth V??? By guys ok! LOL. And then there was this one topic on minimum age to book Hotel 81 and one guy went "When your there got hair can book alrdy" HAHAHA. Self-entertainment in a very stress-filled environment for us, only to realize that this forum is some sex discussion forum. It was so clearly stated at the top but we just didn't notice it. 

If you are bored or whatever, just go read the stuff posted here. You will laugh until you cry, so blardy hilarious.