CLOSE TO THE HEART

Everyone's hitting the BIG 2 and it will be my turn really soon. Thank gawd I am a December baby. Hur hur feel so damn old. The Surprise Birthday Party for C today was a success, and it was girly fun alright with those baked cupcakes, balloons, cam whoring, hiding in the bushes, yakking, girl stuff. Slumber party on Fri night with the girls was hell fun too!Dressing up like trannies, awful makeup, bloody hell red lipstick, eating spicy pasta at 3am, drama on the phone. Met up with Pussy dearest for a long run at east coast, and then digging in on the famous yummy Satay Beehoon with sugar cane and coconut water before the clock strikes 12 and Happy Birthday. With the 2 BFFs' birthday celebrations this week, I am really blessed to have such great friends like them and all my other closest friends, you guys know who you are. And I just wanna say THANK YOU for always being there for me, for not judging me and accepting me for who I am. The times where you guys would just be a phone call away and put aside everything just to hear me bitch, laugh, yell, cry. For lending me a shoulder to cry on, giving me hugs to chase away the sadness, making me laugh so hard till I get breathless. For wanting to pick me up and sending me to the airport at 6am on a Sunday morning just to have breakfast with me and to see me off because 2 weeks feels like forever, sending me random text messages to tell me that I am Missed. For watching my back during those times where I would get so freaking hell high and drunk that I blank out, offering to come and pick me up whenever I club and most importantly, just being there for me when I needed someone. Thank you my friends, it really means alot to me, everything that you guys have done. Cradle to Grave yes? :)

PERTH

40 DOLLARS!!!!!!!OMFG

Burnt.

The Boys!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY PUSSY!

I HIDE YOU SEEK OR THE OPPOSITE

HAPPY BIRTHDAY BABYGIRL!

L.O.S.T. Uni applications are a headache. Attach Form H with Form 1, bring along Form J for medical checkup, detach Form A from... yeah I got confused. And there's this really long check list for you to tick against but I stopped reading after point 3. Then I decided to check out some international schools overseas but I didn't even know where to begin, very complicated so yeah forget it. That's just me, lazy and always digressing. Like how I am supposed to log on to some website now to accept the offer of admission but I kept pushing it off. Its so weird, my dad is now insisting on getting me my dream car when I don't even want it anymore! You see he wants to tie me here so that I wouldn't fly away for four years to pursue yet another piece of paper or take up a career in the sky for two years not that I want to but I really want to see the world and you are only young once right? Somebody give me directions please. And I finally settled what I have planned for a very long time and am so excited for it! A release of exaggerated emotions hidden in subconciousness kinda helped even though I don't recall a single thing. Strangely... gdnight!

MAXIMUM HIGHNESS

SHITFACED!!!! Omg I can't really remember what happened last night. Bits & pieces of black and white, grey zones, and then one huge chunk of being zonked. Haven't felt like that in a long time, partying and having no recollection of what happened. I dunch even know how did I get home. I think I didn't even pay for cab fare because all I had was ten dollars and I came back with ten dollars in my pocket. Gosh! And one side of my contact is missing, my eye hurts like fuck and I can't seem to find it despite pushing my eye left right up down and washing it with solution. Plus I lost my nose stud and I woke up clothed in skin only with the towel half wrapped around and packets of biscuits at the side of my bed. I don't even remember falling asleep. But it was hell fun of a Saturday night, downed a couple of flamings and others and poof like magic you are in another world. Okay I better go see a doctor now I really hope my contact is not torn and stuck in my eye. Oh and thank you gfs for being there and taking care of me! <3

UNTIL THE UNTHINKABLE HAPPENS

Often, my mind has wandered much while lying in bed in the midst of trying to fall asleep. At times it has stalled in its wandering, like when entering a room and then forgetting what the main purpose was. It stands alone dumbstruck. At those times it has been numb, and when staring at the blue walls I have thought of nothing but of the fact that I am staring at blue walls. My mind has bounced from numbness to feeling too much, but once while wandering too far, I dug deep to revisit memories of when I was a little girl, I used to play dress up and pretence with my gfs who were also my neighbours. Sometimes we would act as if we were air stewardess, sometimes teachers, doctors, princesses. And through the years, I have increasingly found that people never truly tire of playing games and dressing up, no matter how many years pass. We just lead more sophisticated lives; our words to deceive, more eloquent. From cowboys and Indians, doctors and nurses, to husband and wife, we've never stopped pretending. I would want to very much but yet I don't want to because I can't get past my fears. Its funny how when you finally get what you wanted only to not want it anymore because you simply gave up along the way. It's just too late.

PLANET EARTH

My heart sinks each time I get back from a holiday because that signals bouncing back into reality. During the time away, I had no connection or whatsover with the 'real world' except for the mobile phone to be used in emergencies and to contact my parents with an unknown number. Other than that, no internet connection, no emails, no facebook. Facebook is like the new Gossip Girl, you find out too much, know too much. Then it casts doubts and suspicions on you, mindfucking your brain, prompting you to unravel the question mark that's blocking your vision. Ignorance is bliss, how true! But human nature is inquisitive, too much of it kills actually. Its not like I don't miss my friends here, in actual fact I do miss everyone very very much. But I like solacing in a foreign country, where you don't know anyone and nobody knows you. Run away from people you do not wish to bump into coincidentally since Singapore is so effing small, escape from all the problems and worries. No wait, we can never run away from our problems no matter how far we go to, I have tried, but nah your thoughts still follows wherever you go. I am swearing off shopping for a month or two. Went with an almost empty luggage and came back with one that weighed 30kg!!!! Thanks to Al who bought me the humongous luggage as a gift which startled me pretty much when he called to tell me he had a present for me before I left! Reason behind the present: Cause I am such a travel whore and my old luggage was crap. And also I wanna thank the 2 boys who accompanied me and waited patiently as I spent hours circling the night markets shopping like a crazy bitch during the whole trip and they had to carry all my shopping bags for me, shouting, pinching, slapping them on the rides we took at the amusement park, pillow fights, bitch fights, clubbing, taking care of me and so much more! I had so much fun boys, thank you :)

Okay I dunno whether is the building shaking or its just me swaying. Goodnight!

Jeffery's Bdae

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