EYE CANDY

Yet another week flew by just like that. I feel so unaccomplished except for maybe picking up golf. Yes I am taking up golf lessons and did I mention how gorgeously cute & charming my golf coach is? That everytime he looks into my eyes and speaks to me, my legs get wobbly and I feel myself melting away. Geesh I feel like a school girl again, just that my crush is a million times hotter. But I will be missing golf lessons for 2 weeks cause I am flying off to Taipei and Hong Kong this Saturday. Really psyched for all the shopping sprees, dim sum, night markets, Disneyland, and of course travelling with my 2 male bitches. Heehee. And I received a hot pink Ipod shuffle from Mr. Santa Claus cause he always showers me with surprises :) It was such a blessing because I was gonna get either the Ipod shuffle or the Nano this coming week and "poof", I got one as a gift, so thank you! Save me from all the decision-making and contemplation since I am so indecisive. Shucks I think I am beginning to have a thing for caucasians. Within this week, I met a French dude, a London dude and of course my golf coach (haven't found out where he's from but doesn't matter). Actually, my dad was the one who hired the golf coach and he picked the best looking out of all the coaches there for me so that I wouldn't lose interest in the sport! I swear my dad is so cunning and cool at the same time. Finally I have gotten down to uploading the photos from Korea. Goodnight!

Lotte World

Jeju

Teddy Bear Museum

Ski Resort

The Menu That Doesn't Make Sense

SCENTS AND THE CITY

Play. Pause. Rewind. Fast Forward. To What? Where? Blurry images lie ahead of me, black and white of my past. I have a million and one things on my to-do list but it slips my mind, I procrastinate. I feel so free, yet busy, so lonely, yet occupied, planned yet disoriented. She was right, my heart doesn't know what it wants. The letter of acceptance from NUS arrived in the cluttered letterbox last week. In the presence of a terrible hangover, my phone rang at 10am on a Saturday morning. It was from SMU, informing me that I have been shortlisted for the interview this Friday, thus I cancelled my trip to Manilla. But it feels that the puzzle isn't complete, but I ain't gonna search for the missing pieces because I believe that someday, somehow, everything will just fall into place. So I shall spread my wings and fly, travel around the world, experience the different dimensions of life, gain greater insights, discover ME - something that has existed but is generally unknown.

A THROAT SO SORE & NOSE SO RUNNY

Airlines, one of the few businesses who should be BEGGING for customers, and still being so incompetent. I am really pissed right now, not petty pissed but ANGRY pissed at Singapore Airlines. The story goes like this. So I am supposed to fly to Manilla tomorrow 21st March but I postponed my flight to next Wednesday 25th March due to some personal reasons and paid extra SGD 229 for the change. Just awhile ago,I went on the SQ website to check my flight details and to my utter horror, my eticket stated that my departure date is tomorrow 21st March instead of Wednesday 25th March plus they have deducted the extra charges from my credit card. Confused, I checked my email and the itinerary stated that my departure date is next Wednesday 25th March. So I called up SQ and they told me I was not on the list for the flight on the 25th of March and its fully booked when I have paid for the extra charges. After like 2 hrs or so, SQ called me back and said that they have put me back on my flight for the 25th of March. And now I am on the waiting list for the 22nd and 23rd of March. Pffffftttttttttt.

"Have I mentioned a spectacular specimen of bellicosity you are when you are angry" was the message i got from D when I was complaining incessantly about how frustrated I was to her. Anyway I miss Perth very very much and when we touched down last night back in Singapore, I felt like crying, no kidding. Gtg now, enjoy the weekends!

SPINNING AROUND

OMG fucking awesome night at METROS, the Zouk of Perth! Snapped like 10,000 photos, drank uncountable number of tequilla, Bacardi 151, Hennessy, Vodka blah blah blah, partied like mad, got fucking high, wasted, took more photos, aussie lingo, driving, police, road block, chips, kebabs. I love it here. Went down to the beach and the waves were huge, beautiful scenery, got a damn bad sun burnt on the back with really ugly tan lines, chinese food, more drinking. Absolutely love it here. Freaking high right now but who the hell cares, its a freaking holiday. I hate how indecisive I can get, its like this stupid game I am playing with myself all the time. And after going rounds and rounds, up and down, its my decision to make at the end and the worst part is I can't fucking make up my mind and I love this game that I am stuck in. Stupid man. Typing this shit when I am so damn high. My aussie phone line is out of credit when I still have 150 dollars left in there, omg, how disgusting, but I can't make any phone calls or send any text messages because they said I have insufficient credit. WTF? Okay nvm, I miss you, you and you, but I am not going to do anything about it because then I will be tangling myself up even more and its pretty messy out there already. Lost 40 Aussie at the Casino yest but that's not the point. If there was something that could just wipe out your memory, I would be the first in line. I should go to bed now, its like 5.30am in Aussieland. Good night :)

WILL THIS EVER HAPPEN

It's a kinda pain, I can't quite fully explain. Waiting has became a routine, distance turned permanent. From seconds to minutes then hours, and soon after it seemed as though a lifetime has passed me by. I try to look on the brighter side, on the many possible reasons that were given. Even though I can't quite seem to comprehend logic laid out before me due to my emotional weakness, I have maximised my capacity to understand which is something I was never capable of doing. So I would deceive myself, brush all my sensitivity and paranoia aside and tell myself everything is ok when it obviously isn't. Hello you stranger, who have you become. I recognize that voice and that face, but I don't seem to know you anymore. You have drifted so far out and I am still here awaiting your return. The only thing that is holding me together now are the words you have spoken, the promises made. In my slumber or in my dreams do I feel you, feel us again, but only for that moment, my happiness is shortlived. I really miss you and all the times we had once spent together.

St Marg's Class Gathering

OF BITTER & SWEET MEMORIES

As we grow older, we also grow stronger. Mainly because of the ordeals and experiences that we have been through. Facing a loss, dealing with the pain, letting go and moving on. The hurt becomes less unbearable when subsequent painful incidences strikes us; subconciously we have already developed a mindset to protect ourselves from going through the same misery from that one most heart wrenching moment that had scarred us for the rest of our lives. Sad ain't it. What happened to the innoncence and simplicity of life we once had as a child. With a blink of the eye, it just vanished and we find ourselves struggling most of the times with ourselves, with our loved ones, school, work, money, and we fail to just take a step back to see what life truly has to offer. In the past week, I had learnt how to live and let go, as well as of all the good and bad, the happy and sad memories. I have also understood the meaning of being selfless and that we live not for ourselves but for others that we love. So don't expect, don't complain, be bitter no more. It wouldn't cost a thing to just put a smile on their faces.

Steve Aoki