SHENANIGANS

I don't get it, honestly, I don't. How can the heart sway and falter so easily? Or is it simply because everyone is deluding themselves all the time, trying to make the best out of their current partners to fill the void in their lives and avoid lonely spells that kills. When you are with her, you are thinking about another girl, but you tell her you love her and that she is all you want and need. When you are with him, are you constantly asking yourself is he the one, or you are just settling for the sake of it. Love, fairytales and happily-afters do not exist in my world; I just don't believe in them. We can never be truly sastisifed or contented, and more often than not, we decide on something because we cannot get better. Or we might get what we want, to want something even better after that. Everything is a joke at the end of the day. They say if you love someone, you have to be compromising, accomodating and understanding. That is why love isn't enough, because when it vanishes from the relationship, all the above elements disappear alongside it as well. What's left are just broken pieces to be picked up, and no matter how hard you try to piece them back together, it will never return to its original state. I know I sound cynical and skeptical about it, but face it darling, its the sad truth.

London was awesome. But right now I am in Bath and its so boring. The place is gorgeous, but I think I will cry everyday if I were to live here for long. Last night in London was dope. We went bar hopping and club hopping on a tuesday night! UK is about half a day behind. lol. We started off with really good cocktails first at this bar, but it closed at 11pm. So we scooted off to this club/bar called 49 or something. After a few more shots, cocktails and drinks, A. went to buy a bottle of Grey Goose. Brilliant! The 4 of us gulped down more than 3/4 of the bottle in less than an hour. At our peak already, 49 had to close at 2am. We then left for this club in Soho I think, was too high at that time already, and drank even more. OMG. But it was good fun with the new friends that V introduced. Partied till like 6am and then went for breakfast at Macs intoxicated! By the time I got back to the hotel, it was like 6.30am, slept til 11am and had to pack to go to Bath. Will be stuck here for one and a half days more. Gosh. Can't wait for friday, gonna head to Leicester to meet Alex! Till then, xoxo.